guys, guys, guys ..

Let me tell you an .. AWKWARD? story.. ok i don’t know if awkward is the right word but i will tell you anyway. So earlier this month i visited my boy and my parents didn’t know that he existed or that i had met him or that i was meeting him again. I told my parents that I was going to my friends Caravan up north for a few weeks when in reality i was flying to the other side of Europe.. woopsies :P anyway iv explained before why i couldnt tell my parents. So while i was away my mum was in my room(i have no idea why) and she found the pill in my room :S EMBARRASSING YES. so she got all panicky and decided to look through my diary where she learned everything about my boy, our relationship and me being on the opposite side of europe. Regardless to say she was pissed off and i received a very angry phone call.. hehe anyway so i didnt worry too much and after i got home my mum was LIVID. so angry.. I am 18 but i can understand her hurt just i knew she wouldnt understand or let me go if i had been truthful, and im kind of glad that she found out cause i had been stressing about how to tell her for a while…. anyway everything is very awkward now and the pill talk was embarrassing .. i did protest that i was a virgin and just being safe but i doubt she believed that lie .. but now she keeps trying to remove the laptop from me at nights.. Me and my boy talk 11pm ‘till we fall asleep every night. So the other night i confronted her about it, told her that regardless of what she thought of my relationship she had no right to stop us talking. of course she said that i shouldnt be on it so late anyway .. but im always on it that time for years.. yeah.. she keeps saying things like “you dont know him” and im like I KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM! AND HE KNOWS MORE ABOUT ME THAN ANYONE ELSE! she also said it was “disgusting and perverted” .. that hurt alot.

and obviously i know shes hurt that i lied to her(not angry now just hurt) but obviously she must see that i would only do something that crazy if i really LOVED HIM. and she knows EXACTLY how i feel after reading my diary.. idk its just really hard.

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