So N is thinking of applying for an artist visa thing in Hamburg Germany, hes been talking about it for a while, he actually already sells art there using his German relatives. Anyway.. he hates where he stays and he wants to leave he talked about coming here and staying maybe 1 year being with ME. but now its changed to Germany because its “easier”… and im just like “what happened to you being excited about staying with me in a flat and living together and working here??!” OK I HAVNT ACCTUALLY SAID THIS TO HIM. but im thinking it. I also keep saying judgmental things. I know its great that he might be getting the chance to and live in Germany for 9months but on the surface of my emotions im annoyed that he choose that over being with me. Anyway time to put on a fake smile and be “supportive”…