This is Naim. Naim is 20. Naim is a my boyfriend. Naim is Macedonian. I am Scottish. We are in a ldr. WOO :|. I love him. He loves me. We love each other. We met online. He’s the most handsome and genuine guy I’ve ever met. I’ve visited him twice. I need him. I can’t imagine my life without him. 

So that’s your proper introduction to my boyfriend.

I have been abusing this Tumblr but deffinetly I am going to start dedicating my time to it and posting about my LDR and personal thoughts and feelings.

If your interested please don’t hesitate to follow me, I’ll always follow back. I believe that everyone has their own very important thing to express via Tumblr and I want to hear it all :).

him: aww my angel

him: (h)

him: love you so much

him:  its really good to see your face in the morning <3 , your face is so beautiful always your so so amazing babe .. i wish i could kiss your face, your cheeks, your forehead while your sleeping. To keep you attached to me and kiss YOU to feel your soft skin to keep your legs wrapped around me and to feel you ALL JUST FOR ME (h) i love you sooo muchhh babe

wish wish wish so much!

nothing’s the same without you by my side…

For the next few weeks i’m free from Uni but flight prices are ridiculously expensive, Right after I go back to university flights are like £40 return, but there isn’t a flight that would work around the weekend and prevent me from missing some uni… and because the UK is so strict on people visiting its really complicated and costs extra money for N to apply for a tourists visa to visit the UK. So we are both free right now but can’t visit each other and i’m not going to get time off uni till December to visit him… and around that time the flight prices are £$£€£ again… meh. Just wishing that things were different.. like usual.

          Does anyone else feel like their “taste in guys” has changed since falling in love?

        I first talked to my LDB 15months ago online. I thought he was a really nice, funny guy. When I first saw his face on webcam i thought he was “just ok looking”. We were just friends and i didn’t imagine him being anything else. He had nice green eyes i noted but i didn’t feel all “mushy” it was just eyes. Over time I felt myself getting more and more attracted to him as i started to fall in love, but his appearence hadn’t changed any - just my perception of him changed. Now if i’m with a friend in the park and rating random guys out of 10 due to boredness. I have found myself rating those higher that look like N, when previously my type was long hair, rough looking,rocking, tall and muscly. N is near the opposite of this. Yet I am happy with him, In fact i consider myself to be so lucky that I have such a handsome boyfriend.     

        I don’t consider myself particularly beautiful… I have a nose that i really think does not suit my face, a below average sized pair of boobs, my weight gain in the past year is more than iv ever gained before, I’m too tall, my hair is currently a stupid Ginger colour due to the sun, and i even hate the little dent between my nose and lips- Almost everything i dislike. Even my long “model-like” legs that all my friends say that they would “DIE TO HAVE” I find faults with.

    But N makes me feel so beautiful and special, hes really built my confidence - making me happy to be myself :) I need him in my life.

So N is thinking of applying for an artist visa thing in Hamburg Germany, hes been talking about it for a while, he actually already sells art there using his German relatives. Anyway.. he hates where he stays and he wants to leave he talked about coming here and staying maybe 1 year being with ME. but now its changed to Germany because its “easier”… and im just like “what happened to you being excited about staying with me in a flat and living together and working here??!” OK I HAVNT ACCTUALLY SAID THIS TO HIM. but im thinking it. I also keep saying judgmental things. I know its great that he might be getting the chance to and live in Germany for 9months but on the surface of my emotions im annoyed that he choose that over being with me. Anyway time to put on a fake smile and be “supportive”…

guys, guys, guys ..

Let me tell you an .. AWKWARD? story.. ok i don’t know if awkward is the right word but i will tell you anyway. So earlier this month i visited my boy and my parents didn’t know that he existed or that i had met him or that i was meeting him again. I told my parents that I was going to my friends Caravan up north for a few weeks when in reality i was flying to the other side of Europe.. woopsies :P anyway iv explained before why i couldnt tell my parents. So while i was away my mum was in my room(i have no idea why) and she found the pill in my room :S EMBARRASSING YES. so she got all panicky and decided to look through my diary where she learned everything about my boy, our relationship and me being on the opposite side of europe. Regardless to say she was pissed off and i received a very angry phone call.. hehe anyway so i didnt worry too much and after i got home my mum was LIVID. so angry.. I am 18 but i can understand her hurt just i knew she wouldnt understand or let me go if i had been truthful, and im kind of glad that she found out cause i had been stressing about how to tell her for a while…. anyway everything is very awkward now and the pill talk was embarrassing .. i did protest that i was a virgin and just being safe but i doubt she believed that lie .. but now she keeps trying to remove the laptop from me at nights.. Me and my boy talk 11pm ‘till we fall asleep every night. So the other night i confronted her about it, told her that regardless of what she thought of my relationship she had no right to stop us talking. of course she said that i shouldnt be on it so late anyway .. but im always on it that time for years.. yeah.. she keeps saying things like “you dont know him” and im like I KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM! AND HE KNOWS MORE ABOUT ME THAN ANYONE ELSE! she also said it was “disgusting and perverted” .. that hurt alot.

and obviously i know shes hurt that i lied to her(not angry now just hurt) but obviously she must see that i would only do something that crazy if i really LOVED HIM. and she knows EXACTLY how i feel after reading my diary.. idk its just really hard.

 <3